Your Dearest Lover and Beloved Enemy

So, you want to be a saint? a mage? an ascended Buddha? a Christ? an Avatar? an incarnation of Vishnu?

The power comes from responsibility. And responsibility starts with a programmed reflex that you are responsible for every experience you feel. Be determined to know yourself as the creator of all your experiences. Not responsible for everything that happens to others, but for everything you feel. You are the only cause of that. And if you project your fears, they will manifest, and if you responsibilise yourself of all your life experiences, the manifestations will be liberating. So think about it. You have to be objective enough to admit what you observe in nature, and deal with it responsibly, and still, have enough faith to know you can only be affected by what you have yet not resolved.

Each of us is responsible for the suffering we go thru. Each experience we do not want to face, we project on others, blame them, and this way we can avoid looking at our own suffering. But that suffering will just jump back at us, in time. Life will take care of it.

Faith is knowing you can only suffer if God sees a purpose in you learning a lesson. So why would you be so afraid of suffering, if it can only bring you an awakening that you refused to see before the actual suffering happened? But then, do not invoke this wisdom to throw yourself at any stupid suffering possibility, this would be a lack of love of yourself, and lack of compassion. So, there is no rule, no way to know what is the best of everything, to suffer or not, to go for the experience or keep yourself comfortable. No way to know, so the solution, I guess, is to have Faith :) Let go of control, and do your best out of your wonderful life, the gift of God to you.

What about forgiveness? When you take 5 minutes to forgive something to someone, it is a noble act indeed, because most people would not forgive. But in my eyes, those who take the time to forgive are but hypocrites in the face of God. Forgiveness is a virtue, a supernatural state, where you exist in. Forgiveness is not an action you do when required. It is a way of being, constant and unmoved. When you experience Forgiveness, you are constantly in the determination never to allow your mind to believe there was an offense, of any kind. You think you have forgiveness when you can do it a few times in a row? What a heap of bullshit, believing you are so advanced spiritually, when you can't even make the sacrifice of your own value. If you believe you are worth something, your ego will allow it to be affected, which will require you to make the hypocrite momentary action of forgiveness, hiding a lie where you just hold back on your anger and repress yourself in a state of control of your need for vengeance. But, it's an essential training step, so do it. Forgive moment after moment, until you know how to exist in forgiveness.

And what about humility? When you prepare yourself at being unaffected by some trial that will come ahead, and you have time to prepare yourself. You think that is humility? Or when someone insults you, and after a few minutes you get back down from the anger rush, and softly reply that you are cool with that, hypocritically calling it humility. Humility is a virtue, thus, it is a state of being, constant and unchanging. When you are humble, there is no value to affect, no sense of importance to disturb. You don't need to prepare yourself for a blast, nor take time to get down from a challenging moment. You just have to be conscious, knowing there is only a quest of love in everyone's apparent suffering. You call yourself humble? Just for not reacting to a confronting trigger, once in a while?

You think you do sacrifices? When you actually get to chose your most enjoyable stuff to suffer, and then complain at how much you had to sacrifice this and that, leaving stuff behind, and losing a bit of resources here and there. You think you know what is a sacrifice, or course, but could you accept to take on you the suffering of people, who in return will tell you how much they hate you? You have trouble making sacrifices for people who will thank you! What are you really ready to face, so you can be with God forever?

The only way to resolve an issue, is to be directly exposed to it. But then again, there are methods that can make most of the wisdom easier to digest, and it is those methods that I have developed so that you would never have to face the most atrocious pain and suffering that most saints had to face in the past. It is time to use the available technology to ease evolution without losing efficiency. What technology? Your own personal laboratory. Breathe, inhabit, feel, observe. Dig up the deep crap without the requirement of an actual trial using fixity, exhaustive observation, and other cool stuff much more fun than actually being tortured.

The ego is always as powerful as the soul who owns it. The ego is a dark experience of pure evil, and still, it is the focus of the Love of our Father. Accept the ego as it is, even in its most evil aspects, and love yourself dearly, because this is what God does. God LOVES.

Your dearest lover and beloved enemy,

Maha Vajra